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She’s Mine

Chapter 12 No More Fake (Summer’s POV)

LOIDA TOLD me that the agency took the blame for my hospitalization. They said na ginawa nilang excuse ang pag-o-overworked sa akin at binigyan nila ako ng five months off work. Hindi nila sinabi na kagagawan ito ni Olga dahil baka mag-backfired. And if we are to call out to her agency, mamaya ay kami pa ang mapasama dahil bukod sa tama ko, walang witness at walang ibang ebidensya. Marami ang nakisimpatya sa akin, at marami ang nagalit sa agency, hanggang sa nakalimutan nila ang tungkol kay Cornelia. But I want the whole world knew that I am a mother now. And Mia’s idea keeps on popping in my head, kaya sinabi ko iyon kay Loida. Now that the sympathy is still on the hype, might as well add some fuel. I was never known to be a romantic person and never caught dating anyone in the industry, kahit pa pina-partner nila ako sa mga kapwa ko artista. “Sa tingin mo ba, makukuha mo pa rin ang pagmamahal ng fans mo just because you had a child, and what was the reason again? You never dated?!” inis na sigaw sa akin ni Madam Denver sa kabilang linya. “Ibabato nila iyong mga sikat na lines mo sa pinagbidahan mo, gusto mo ba iyon?!” “Look, I'll just tell them that I never see myself growing old with a man. And motherhood is the best thing that ever happened to me. That is my definition of love,” mahinahon na sabi ko. Ayaw kong gatungan ang inis niya. Mamaya, isisi niya kay Cornelia ang kawalan ng projects ko sa mga susunod na buwan. “At paano mo gagawin yon, aber?!” “'m composing a song. I will post it along with introduction of my loving daughter.” In my entire career, I never sang a song that was composed by me. Hindi rin ako kumanta ng ayon sa napili kong melody. Lahat scripted, lahat naka-ready na para sa akin, all I have to do is do it the way they wanted me to do it. Pero ngayon, gusto kong gawin ang mga bagay kasama ang anak ko. “Hindi ka na napagsasabihan! Bahala ka. Kapag nag-click sa fans mo, thank you. Kapag lumala ang gulo, screw you!” [ rolled my tongue inside my mouth and didn’t answer. This is it. Iwas given a chance to do it on my own. “Good luck na lang sa iyo, Rain.” Matapos ang tawag ay napangiti ako. Kahit papaano ay nabawasan ang pagdadamdam ko sa agency ko. Lalo na kay Loida. “Mommy, are you done with work?” Naipilig ko ang ulo para tingnan ang anak ko. Nakatayo siya sa pinto ng mini-studio, suot ang pangtulog niya. Sinenyasan ko siya na lumapit sa akin. Sa harap ko ang piano. “Cornelia, I have this song. This will be our debut together. Gusto kitang ipakilala bilang anak ko. Ready ka na ba?" I pressed a key on the piano. “Pero baka po masira ang image niyo. Like what I saw in the internet about celebrities.” “If so, it only means being a celebrity and a Mom is not for me. At kung sa huli ay papipiliin ako, syempre...” I sighed. This song is a debut song for us, at the same time, my goodbye song to my past. “Tkaw ang pipiliin ko.” I SET UP the camera in front of the piano. After ng breakfast namin, napagpasyahan ko na i-record na ang kanta. Hindi na kami nag-make up ni Cornelia, nagsuot lang din kami ng pambahay—our royal blue dress. Hindi ko na rin tinali ang buhok niya, her shiny straight hair is beautiful and charming. And when we're done preparing, I took three deep breaths and smile at the camera. “Hello! So first time ko itong gagawin...” Marami pa akong sinabi na introduction, sinabi ko rin ang pagkakaroon ko ng limang buwan na bakasyon mula sa camera and I promised my fans that from time to time, I will post an update of my health and daily life. (0 ito na nga, may kanta akong niluluto in this past few days with my daughter, Bella. There is this line na galing din sa kanya. And we are happy to let you hear the freshly made.” I glanced at my daughter na ngiting-ngiti sa tabi ko. “Sa lahat ng nagmahal at nasaktan, people with never ending what ifs, never ending I wish, never ending ‘kung totoo lang ang time machine,’ never ending ‘magmo-move on na talaga ako,’ never ending ‘last na ito,’ let’s see kung para sa inyo ang kantang ito.” I let out a shy laugh as I started to press. the keys. I should have asked Loida’s assistance! I'm a camera person, pero never kong ginawa ito na ako lahat ang nag-set up, hanggang sa script. “This song is about the love that was given a chance yet wasn’t worth the fight.” Para sa iyo ito, Maxie, Makinig ka. We swayed our bodies sideways as I get into the cue key. “If only I could say those words, maybe this time I'm not alone. And you're still here with me, together we share the world we made. But because of my innocence, wondering what it really means. Now you leave me, and everything is just a dream.” It was like a poem, a short sad story that was made with a perfect harmony. “If only I could say those words, maybe I didn’t make you fly. Now you're so high that’s so hard to reach. Like a magic that turns reality into a dream. And change promises into a nightmare. How I wish I could bring you back again.” Goodbye promises. Goodbye dreams. Hello, reality. It's been eight years and I'm back. “If only I could say those words, maybe I’m still in that paradise for lovers where I can hear the sweet song of the birds.” I'm glad I didn’t ask her to stay. “I love you, stay. Fantastic, isn’t it? But I'm really hurt because of it...” Sa gilid ng mata ko, nakita ko ang pamimilog ng mata ng anak ko. llang saglit: pa ay ngumiti siya Yes, she recognized her lines. “Now, I'm in a world of fairytale, where there is nothing but a fake...” I'm sorry fairytale stories, but what I said is truth. There’s nothing but fake, tales, and lies. In real life, there’s no such thing as happy ending with the iconic lines of “they live happily ever after.” I enjoyed my childhood days because of you, but now... It’s time to say goodbye with happy endings. And after this day, no more fake for Rain—Summer Braganza.